I need my period to come
Like now. Or in the next few days.
My boyfriend and I made peanut butter cookies last...
Nomm nom nommm
Do you think my boyfriend would know our anniversary? Cause I sure don’t know it.
Day29- goals for the next 30 days
•Teach my friend the drums so we can start our band •Try to make healthier life choice •Talk to my sister more often •Try to overcome my insomnia and sleep better •Break from my fears, and sing my heart out without shame.
My best friend and I are gonna be Joan Jett and...
So I’m Joan Jett. I just found the slutiest, yet Joan Jettiest top in the world. It’s black suede with a corset like tie down the front. It shows major clevage. My boyfriend might jump my bones. I’m so fucking excited!
Wear purple today
Let’s put an end to gay bullying!
Day28- something that you miss
Being able to control my emotions and my moods.
I got 30 minutes of sleep last night.
Day27- a problem that you've had
Trusting people and being confident with it, and myself overall. Because of my past, I find it very difficult to trust anyone which causes me to be paranoid and not as confident as I come off as. I’ve learnt the “fuck off” method of dealing with stupidity in my life. I no longer need drugs to be confident.
I'm so excited for Tuesday. I'm getting my hair...
Day26- what kind of person attracts you?
Usually the wrong kind. The dark, emotionless artistic types with load of problems. If you give off a badass, tough exterior vibe, I will fuck you really hard.
Day26- someone who fascinates you and why
I know she’s a fictional character by, Cassie Hack from the graphic novels, hack/ slash. She’s so complex and intriguing. Her mom was a slasher, now she hunts slashers down and kills them with her deformed friend, Vlad. She’s also gay and usually emotionless and confused. I love her.
Day24- your favorite movie and plot
I skipped the day where I put pictured of famous boys. Either star wars or the lord of the rings. (i’m counting each series as one) Star wars- a long long one ago in a galaxy far far away….. TLOTR- One Ring to rule them all, One Ring to find them, One Ring to bring them all and in the darkness bind them. Go to imdb.com for actual plots.
Day22- how have you changed in the past 2 years?
Two years ago I was always high, I trusted no one, I was with a guy (on and off) who’d take advantage of me and physically and emotionally abuse me. My father’s rage was at his highest, lashing out on me (usually he’d just lash out on my mom). Now 90% of the time, I’m not high. I went from trusting no one to a bunch of people, to maybe 2. I’ve completely blows out...
Day21- one of your favorite shows
Criminal minds. I don’t know why
Day20- is education important?
Yes. I think that a proper education is very important. I think that every person should have the right to a proper education. Plus, school smarts and street smarts are equally important. One is only as good as the other. Experiences count as education.
I'm excited for sex tonight. It's been too long.
An entire day and a half since the last time. =)
Day19- disrespecting parents?
That depends on the parents. I feel like there are cetain circumstances that disrespecting your parents is fine. I I said otherwise, I’d be a hypocrite.
I believe in music, art and the power that people have over others.
I had kinky handcuff sex today.
Day17- highs/lows of this past year
Let’s start with the lows. I attempted to kill myself, I found out that I have a mood disorder, I have constant frightening flasbacks, I was “kicked out” multiple times, I cheated on my now ex boyfriend, I lost over 10 “good” friends, this list goes on. The highs. I quit smoking, I stopped doing hardcore drugs(and only relasped 2 times), I found a guy who I think I...
Day16- view on mainstream music
Kay. I think lady gaga is a creative genius. I think justin bieber is a prebubescent little boy who looks like a dyke….without talent. I appreciate raw passionate music and talented musicians. There are some of these found in the mainstream industry, in my opinion, not enough. But they’re there. For the most part, I hate mainstream, top 40’s music. It’s repetitious,...
….when I say I enjoy things that remind me of myself, it’s not to sound self absorbed. But to know that itera feel the same as I do is comforting.
Day15- favorite tumblrs.
I don’t have a clear cut favorite. I might have favorite posts but no favorite blog. I like things that are interesting, controversial, weird, disturbing and things that may remind me of myself.
Day14- earliest memory.
Uh I don’t know. I remember a whole bunch when I was in montessori so like 3 years old. Like when it was winter outside, and I had this bright blue puffy jacket with fake furaroud the hood. My teachers would put my hood on and they’d call me an Eskimo.
Day13- place you'd wanna live
Hmm. I like Toronto (where I am) London (I love the English and the rain) San Fransisco Paris (or somewhere close to it. I love speaking french, love the culture) I need to be in a pretty high paced city. Maybe New York, who knows. I can’t stand the country for more then a weekend or quick vacation.
Day11- bullet your day.
• wake up and play with dogs. • eat breakfast with family. • go shopping at la senza with my sister. • birthday dinner. • call boyfriend to talk before bed. • try to sleep, fail. Eventually have a shitty sleep.
Day11- first 10 songs on shuffle.
The Kills- What New York used to be Texas With a Dollar Sign- Old Milwaukie Talkie Queen- Don’t Stop Me Now. Crashcarburn- Get Away. The A.K.A.’s- Weddings and Funerals. Sex Pistols- Anarchy in the UK. Against Me!- What We Worked For. The Dead Weather- Blue Blood Blues. Billy Talent- Nothing To Loose. The Ramones- I Wanna Be Your Boyfriend.
Day10- first love and first kiss.
Lars start with my first real kiss. Not the stupid, I’m in kindergarten and eat worms. So I think I was 12. His names Zack and he went on to take my v card and well, to put it plainly, abuse me, take advantage of me and give me nightmares until this day. But then, we were at an elemantary in school dance. Yep. That’s all I remember. First love. Hmmm. More like love? What the fucks...